when I first started this 30 day letter challenge I never realised how close my letters would be to my heart, they were thirty and all of my letters mean so much to me, when I started writing a letter to a deceased I really connected to it and thought they was a lot of emotion in it, I cried, smiled and laughed at my memories with an amazing girl that I was very close to. I was never planning on posting my letters but when I wrote this one and another I really wanted to share it to the world.
so here is it…………
30 DAY LETTER CHALLENGE – LETTER TO A DECEASED
I miss you so much, it’s so hard to believe your gone I still think when I’m walking my daughter to school that I’m going to see you on the way with your beautiful smile and find myself looking for you.
I always think about the good times we had when we were younger, we used to have so much fun with sleepovers, I can remember my grandad used to always call you blondie and sing when he was drunk we used to always laugh about him, I literally grew up with you from very young and all the way through school until we had little kiddies our self.
We had a lot of great times and I really do miss you, although we weren’t as close later in life, we were always there for each other even if we hadn’t spoken to each other for weeks, I can remember all the times in school ( and after) when we would cry about boys or laugh just about anything you were always the one that cheered me up when I was down.
Your boys were your world you doted on them and were a great mom and now instead of you being at my daughter’s school I see your mom and sister who love and miss you so much.
You are an amazing person and when you walked into a room you literally used to brighten it, I hate that you were taken far too soon from your family and friends but most importantly to your little boys.
I hate knowing you got hurt ( hurt isn’t the word im looking for) from your childhood sweetheart, the person you love and wanted to spend your life with, the person that helped you bring your two beautiful boys into the world and then he took you away from them.
I’m sure your looking down on your little boys, mom and sister and everyone else in your family and are so proud of them, I’ve never seen a family as strong and brave as they are.
Since you were taken away to soon I know you can’t write back but I know your in heaven, I bet your shining bright just as much if not more than when you were here and that your bright and big smile still brightens a room and everyone around you and that your family make you proud.
I really wish you could write back we used to always write little notes or letters in school and class about daft things.
You’ve been gone two years just gone, I’ll always remember as it was Mother’s Day you were found but it just still doesn’t feel real that your gone and are with the angels now. (please tell my Grandad not to sing to much when he’s drunk lol)
Fly high my beautiful friend,
Love and miss you always